ikaw.

Please don't think I'm making you look bad through my blog, please..

First of all, no one reads my blog anyway, it's just a form of a teraphy for me. Second, I'm not really making you feel guilty or anything now am I trying to make you look bad...

Pleae, wag ka magalit...

Wala na akong masabihan eh... Hindi ko kakayaning nasa kwarto lang ako, mag-isa... Ayoko na ng pakiramdam na umiiyak ako ng mag-isa... tas walang text sayo... na hindi mo man lang malalaman kung bakit ako nagkakaganto... ni hindi mo alam o wala kang paklam na hindi ako tumatawag sayo...

I son't even want to realize that you are purposely not calling me or even texting me or even wondering why I'm not calling back.

KAso, nasasaktan rin ako kapag nakakareceive ng text mo...

I made a bad joke, I'm going to never hear the end of it.

Kapag may mali ako, pinapamukha mo talaga eh. Kulang nalang sampalin mo sa mukha ko. Pero you have to know I have good intentions. You just saw it in a wrong way...

and i guess i really am not enough for you.

I always thought you were, that's why kayang kaya mo akong suyuin pag galit ako. Kaya alam mo ang gagawin pag galit ako.

Pero pag ikaw naman yung galit, ginagawa ko naman yung alam kong magpapatanggal ng galit mo eh. Pero hindi talaga gumagawa. manlamibng ako or anything, sabihin na tama na ang init ng ulo mo... mukhang mas naiirita ka pa nga eh...

kaya hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko at kung san ako lulugar.













The void is still there... hindi pa nawawala.

It's the same void I feel everytime I get hurt. It was the same void I felt when we almost broke up. THe same void I felt when dad told us the truth. The same void I felt when I realized nma may feelings si papa. The same void I felt When I realized what he saw in her. The same void I feel when we have big fights,. The same void I feel when I get hurt. The same void I thought I would never feel.

Pero alam ko namang imosibleng mawala satin yung void eh. At least alam mong mahal talaga kita.














-sF-